My Aunt, my Dad's sister and Grandma's only daughter, and I spoke about how we were going to follow that example that she left us. I hate to admit it, but I have become apathetic in a way and my relationship with God has been a struggle the last 4 years. However, knowing that I have the ability to prayerfully intercede for my three children (shown above with my Grandma) each and every day has convicted me to get back to my quite time with God AND I committed to doing it first thing in the morning.
Granted, I have only been home for about a week in a half now, but God spoke to me this morning. In fact, God has been whispering to me since I started (and before then, but I was not sensitive to his voice). However, today I feel as though I should blog about what he taught me. Satan has put up a few obstacles just in this last week and staying to my committed time with God in which I study his word and pray over my children has been challenged. Last week I was grief stricken, but I did stick to my commitment. This week I was hit with some incredible pain in my abdomen. Worse than labor pains. In fact, it has been the worst pain I have ever experienced in my entire life. The first day with the pain I did get my Bible study time in, but it was not first thing. Then yesterday, I decided that no matter what I would have my time with God. So I sat hunched over my desk and did it. This morning, I am still waiting to hear back from the doctor and I am having slight pains still, but I was determined to get my alone time in with God. This is what he revealed to me:
Revelation 2:20 - 23: Nevertheless I have this against you: You tolerate that woman Jezebel, who calls herself a prophetess. By her teaching she misleads my servants into sexual immorality and the eating of food sacrificed to idols. I have given her time to repent of her immorality but she is unwilling. So I will cast her on a bed of suffering and I will make those who commit adultery with her suffer intensely, unless they repent of her ways. I will strike her children dead. Then all the church will know that I am he who searched hearts and minds and I will repay each of you according to your deeds.
God loved Jezebel and wanted her to turn from her ways so that he would come and fellowship with her (see Revelations 3:20). How do I know God loved Jezebel? According to the above scripture he gave her time to repent, but SHE was unwilling. Then in Revelation 3:19 it states" Those whom I love I rebuke and discipline, so be earnest and repent." Is Jesus not rebuking her in above scripture? It is like even there as he already knows her future he is trying to get her back. He loves her just like he loves every woman no matter their sin. Are you going through something? Do you feel as though God is rebuking you? Take courage! It is proof that he loves you.
James 1:2 : Consider it all joy, my brethren when you encounter various trials
2 Corinthians 12:9 : "My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness." Most gladly therefore I will boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ dwells in me.
1 Thessalonians 5:18: Give thanks in all circumstances for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.
I thank God for my Grandma and her strong faith and constant prayer over me and my children. She was a great cook and always had a tin full of cookies in her freezer. She played "Kings in Corners" with my cousin and I. She also had a closet in her hall that always had a stash of soda and chips as well as games. I remember fondly doing the same puzzle at her house over and over again at each visit. She also turned me onto the love of movies such as "Miracle on 34th st" and "It's a Wonderful Life". I hope I never forget the New Year's Eve Game and pizza nights at her house or gathering around her table for holiday dinners in which she insisted on sitting in the chair that was closet to the kitchen so that she could load up your plate with food even though you were no longer hungry. She was not perfect, no one is, but she did have a reverence and respect for the Almighty. I did not realize it until after her death that she was living a life of example by her quite time with God and now it is my job to do that for my kids and someday my grandchildren. So, even though I have not prayed for my children consistently over the years they were covered in prayer each day by her. It humbles me and I feel truly blessed by her faithfulness to God.
Rest in Peace Grandma and may your treasures in Heaven be many!